louisejenniferBASTILLE: Bad Blood.
louisejenniferBASTILLE: Bad Blood.
Is puberty finally striking?
There is hair in places there isn’t normally ha-no. Trust you to make some sort of comment. Where you been, ginger? I very nearly missed you.

You really think that’s the only thing I’m upset about, Brandon? Yeah sure, I’ve got that mess to handle, but he’s not the only person it feels like I’ve lost.Did you already forget that I told you I love you and you didn’t even say a thing in response? Not even “Okay” or “I’m sorry I don’t feel that way.” I told Oliver. I told him I still care about you much more than I should and that’s pretty much the main reason he left. So excuse me if I’m a little bitter. I managed to tell the one person in the world who did NOT want to know how I felt.. And I faced up to what it meant. You didn’t say a word, and you still haven’t mentioned it. And you know what? Don’t. If it’s really not something you want to bother with, then don’t. I said my heart’s been broken twice over for a reason.So yes, I feel like getting drunk. I know it’s not the smartest or most worthy way to spend my time, but I want it. At least in this moment, right now. It’s better than laying here with nothing better to do than dwell in my own thoughts.
Of course I haven’t forgotten about it. How could I forget something like that? It’s one of the most important things anyone has ever said to me. But you know what, Dylan? I was scared and I still am!You came and you dropped a huge bomb on me. What did you want me to do? When you told me, you were engaged! I did what I did for the same reason I hadn’t made a single move on you since we broke up. Because I care about you and I want you to be happy. I didn’t want to trash your relationship with Oliver because you seemed happy with him. I didn’t expect any of this to happen because you. chose. him!But you think I don’t want to bother with this all? Is that really what you think of me now? How can you want me to say that back to you when I don’t know when you’re with him and when you’re not? Because I fucking refuse to say something that is tha big of a deal to me, to have it thrown back at me if you two fix your problems. I was cheated on once, that was bad enough.
I still stand. Getting drunk isn’t the way forward.
stxadamsxwarlockYou resorted to it when I hurt you, didn’t you? I feel like my heart’s been broken twice over and I’ve got nothing left. I just want to stop feeling for a little while.
It’s what everyone around here resorts to, and it’s ridiculous. It doesn’t solve anything and eventually it makes you feel like shit. It’s rough, an engagement has been broke off, but it’s not the end of the world, Dyl. It’s gonna feel like it is, but it’s not. You’re sixteen, for Christs sake. Maybe, in the long run, you’ll realise this is better. If someone wants to ruin something that’s that big of a thing, maybe you’ve got to stop and think that it’s not worth it and that there are better things out there for you.
.. Okay?
stxadamsxwarlockI got high, Lily got mad, I hid under my duvet
Very clever of you.

Where have you been hiding then?
Just around. Been keeping myself busy. What have you been doing?

I never said I was going to die.. Just drink. If you’re really all that concerned you can come watch me drink and try to steal the bottle from me when you think I should be done.
Why is drinking always the answer to everything? You don’t have to go there.

Nothing, good to see you.
It’s good to see you too.
